Reflection on 2009

2009 – a year of changes, with major ups & downs, constant self doubt & I’m glad that it’s over.

2009 started off well with the limited school days left in SP, I really miss every single bit of it cause I know it’ll never be the same the moment I start work. The fyp & whatsnot < work 8-6.

Life after graudation isn’t exactly smooth & honestly, I know that part of me is unsure of what I want to do & yet at the same time I just want to move on. I made a couple of rash decisions, & realised that I should really slow down & decide what I want for myself rather than just following others’ expectations. I’m glad that my parents are supportive, despite my really short temper & I’ve really encouraging friends that lend me the best shoulders I can ever ask for.

I would say that without these wonderful people I would be walloping in self pity & I’ve tons of people to thank, & apologise for neglecting. My mum is my greatest support. Although we have countless arguements over my decisions in life, she always suss out the best advices. I’m guilty of neglecting the family & my resolution for 2010 will be to place family above all, nothing beats being at home. (:

Studies isnt exactly smooth sailing cause it’s totally different from anything I’ve taken before. On top of that, balancing work & studies is harder than expected. I broke down once when I was copying notes in class cause I couldnt catch up & I was always late due to OTs at work & suddenly, I felt like a loser. I dont know if my hard work will pay off & I was worried sick that I will fail my papers.

So enough of the bad memories, come 2010 I’ll emerge stronger & better. (:

Emily - Best girlfriend I can ever ask for, seriously. For giving me the moral support I needed most back then & you never fail to put a smile on my face, thank youuu girl! I’m glad we came this far, you’r forever so selfless & nice that no one will ever want to take you for granted. There are endless fun being around you, & it’ll be hard to list down everything that we did this year! Thank you for hearing me rant & everything you’ve done for me. (:

Huimin - Thank you for bringing me into IAL. I wouldnt say I feel excited about working here but at least it kept me busy & contented. For being a good partner to walk to work with, to being there for me when I cried in the toilet, to supporting me when I felt like giving up at work (ya, that pat on the head whenever you came up to get feedback forms really make me feel so much better, in case you never know), to arguing over things & patching things up again, to gossiping & the list goes on, thank you. (:

Angela & Cheryl - Honestly, I would have died if I were to study ACCA alone. It’s not just the notes that you guys have provided me when I’m late for lessons, it’s the moral support that you guys gave me that kept me going on. I would have give everything up without you girls in class & those talks in lectures made me feel like I’m back in DAC01 which still makes me feel happy. Angela for always telling me that if I need a ear she’ll always be there & Cheryl for always telling me to not stress myself over things. You guys have been such a great joy in school & I would say the friendship has gone beyond our poly days. Though we may not meet everyday or frequently, we still care & keep in touch. (:

Eunice - Thank you for being there when I was a total wreck & I would say I’ve not been a supportive friend this year. We seldom meet up due to our hectic schedules. I still feel bad about bringing you to IAL but leave for my study break shortly after you came. I’m glad that you mingle well with the people over here & it’s good to see you laughing & being genuinely happy over at work. You’ll always have a ear here & 2009 is year of many changes for us & there are ups & downs in our lives, I’m glad that we still keep in contact & confide in each other. Thank you for always keeping my secrets safe with you & making sweet lil things to brighten my day. (:

Alex - Thank you for being there. Even though most of the time we only contact via sms, I know that if one day I ever need help with anything, you’ll not hesitate to offer your help. I dont know how to say nice things to you, so thank you!

Kenn - For everything you’ve done for me, I’m grateful. You’ve been really supportive in whatever I do & you never judge me. I’ve plenty of laughter with you & even though the time spent are limited, it’s quality time. (: 

Zoe - Best cousin I can ever ask for. For always being nonsensical, we came a longgggggg way from our childhood days. I’m glad you went to SP cause we got even closer after that. MTOBWY. (:

I’m glad I made really nice colleagues at work, like Joyce, Jasline (you confirm stalk my blog so no choice must write your name, HAHA!), ShiHui etc etc. Not to mention the enrolment team people who always supported me when work is too overwhelming, so I’m glad that good things come out of work.

So in 2009, I’ve learnt that there are people who matters, who never did, who won’t anymore & who always will.

2009 reflection - to move on from IAL & think of what I really want, at my own pace. (:

I realise how much i’ve missed out in life & how it feels to be drifted away from someone close & that things are not the way it used to be anymore, & it’s sad.

Just please dont comment. I’ll get over it.

wont be updating anything soon cause…

work, studies, family, friends, idiot are too much to handle.

<3

Life’s treating me better now. So i gonna count my blessings & stop whining so much. I hope everything will go smoothly, so let’s cross fingers.

No updates currently, sorry for the mia-ing! bye!

Quotes

“Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we’re wired that way. Because without it, I don’t know; maybe we just wouldn’t feel real. What’s that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop.”

“At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don’t really expect it. It’s like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it’s not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away.”

You know, I ripped this off from blog hopping.

Somehow, it fits perfectly into my situation tonight.

& I should be in bed. Thanks babe for knocking some sense into me.

I’m a total wreck these days & tbh, I detest myself for acting this way.

Life in a nutshell

Emily gave this to me during my 1st week of work. I guess this keeps me going on for quite some time.

It put a smile on my face to know that there are people who still care & will always be there.

Work as an auditor isnt exactly as smooth sailing as I thought it’ll be. I neglected friends, argued with family, wept through the nights searching for a reason for why am I holding on to something that I feel such great resentment for. I never wanted out that badly from anything else before. I dragged myself out day in & out and even though I’m not home over the weekends, I wish that I was. I just want to wallop in self pity & not face anyone or go anywhere. I guess I’ll have to pick up the pieces from here & work my way out.

I guess it’s hard to understand the inner struggles that I went thr, & I dont want to sound like some really negative person trying to gain those pathetic sympathy votes. No dont patronize me – tell me to hang on, you poor thing, be positive, see both sides of coins. NO, I’m not emotional & I’ll never be. I need to have a direction & honestly, I dont have one.

And I know I’ve to act fast because I dont want to be a burden to anyone & hopefully in the midst of my hectic life, I’ll find something that I truly want to venture into. Sadly, I dont. I’ve no one to blame but myself for putting myself in such a predicament.

Still, thank you to the people who care & bother to put the smile back.

When was the last time you are truly happy & smiling from within?

Thankful & blessed.

I’m defintely blessed with the nicest people and family in life. No matter how tiring or bad my day was, there’ll be friends and people who care and bother to put that smile back.

Babe, you are awesome and terribly sweet. HAHA! Thank you! I’ve to mosiac the content cos it’s P&C, so too bad.

I got a whole list of people to thanks for wishing me luck in my TP, cheering me up & telling me it’s ok etc. Oh, and a whole list of photos to upload & tag on FB. I’ll do it soon cos I’ve to sleep! Wish me luck on my 1st day of work & I hope I wont die from exhuastion tml in class!

Wordy Post

I’m doing fine with my mum now. We need to reach to an understanding what we feel is best for each other may not be the best in the eyes of the other.

That aside, work on friday and sun was great. Honestly speaking, I never enjoy work as much as now. ITP was good but usually I wasnt on job with my classmates & I hate audit back then. I like nice and funny colleagues and Jasmine is gonna work with me this coming friday! Oh and friday is my driving test, gee.

Overdue pictures last week when I had my haircut & did medi/pedi with babe. Totally love the wanton mee and babe’s company! And babe was laughing at me when I said let’s take a before and after haircut look. Was it even funny?! :(

We’ve matching nail colours which we totally didnt expect. Cant wait for saturday so we can both laugh at Alex. HAHA!

I was working at Heeren on Sunday & it was an event held by SDU. I swear I’ve not heard any pickup lines as bad as the ones I heard over there. It’s like mass matchmaking session! And after work SH, CK & Jas dropped by for dessert! I swear it’s so damn nice! It’s a dessert shop at Heeren’s basement called Dessert Story, go try the mango ice!

Today I met up with Emily for dinner at JP which was totally enjoyable and relaxing. I’ve not met the girl for ages 1-1 & dishing out secrets from each other still feel damn heart-warming. Oh man, I think i’ll miss these days after I start working. And we’ve a good laugh over so many things! ok pictures will be up only when she tags me!

I need to hurry to bed now cos driving starts at 8am tml. And sch starts tml too.

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Signs of being bimbo:

Eunice says:

OMGGGGGGGGGG

i turned off the sickening msn sound

whee!!

hahaha

i didnt know i can turn it off you knowww!! haha

Mother.

I just don’t understand why all our conversations have to end up in arguments.

Don’t understand.

Fathers’ Day

This post is totally irrelevant to my dad but still Happy Fathers’ Day!

13th Jun

Buffet dinner at Rice Table, def a must try! Esp the tofu telok!

Fried on the outside & dipped in special sauce, the moment my mouth sank into it it’s crispy and soft at the same time! I swear I can eat it over and over again! We were so full yet we kept asking for another portion of that, haha!

Off to Marina Barrage which is so inaccessible! But it was worth it cos the scenery’s really great, the wind was strong & it is such a good place to unwind and enjoy the breeze.

Honestly, getting wasted isn’t my kind of thing so I ordered Ice Lemon Tea while the guys get down to 3.5Litres of tiger beer, flaming laubouginis, waterfall, tequila and barons. I swear they were so wasted at the end of the drinking spree & they visited the toilet every other min, insane!

 

19th June

 Yz flew off to Aust for futher studies & come to think of it, he kind of made the best project mate. Even thou he set really high standards for projects and deadlines were so tight that we had to work overnight at my place to compile everything, it was  fulfilling at the end of the day. In fact, I learnt alot from him.

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I went shopping with Zoe at Vivo last sat and she told me to blog about it. Seriously, how do you blog without photos?! HAHA. Random but chocolate banana cake from Secret Recipe is yummy!